Allo All,
I don't even know if anyone reads this anymore.. But, a journal is a journal.. Which as many of you can see. I'm not very good at.. In the past month a lot has happened to the people around me but I don't really feel a lot has happened with me.. That for some reason Really Bothers me.. My closest friend took a walk on the water and GOD is blessing her abundantly.. She is being changed even more, God has changed her like Saul to Paul.. I am so Extremely proud and happy for her. Another friend is finally taking a step of faith and leaving the close cocoon of her family and going after her adventure and her dream.. I am so excited to see the changes that will happen if she allows them.. I saw a couple of friends dive in to marriage and say I do.. I've felt my child move, which is slightly alarming at first.. I've watched my husband almost burst with delight as he sees my belly grow. He wants me to revel in this pregnancy as much as he seems to be.. To be perfectly honest, I'm not a very patient person. I'm just shy of 5 months and I have at least 4 months to go.. I want to meet this little one already. I made the comment women that enjoy being pregnant must be nuts.. And I'm not yet half way through.. 40 weeks I'm at 18. I enjoy sleep, I'm slowly coming to terms that my body is preparing for what's to come.. No sleep. It seems my focus this past month is how to get as much debt paid off in 4-5 months time.. That has been my obsession.. I realize that is not what God would have me do. I'll keep on the budget I'm on and not obsess.. GOD will provide. We are definitely not hurting.. I've just been listening to Dave Ramsey in the afternoons. Well, that definitely has an affect on you.. I'm not saying it's good to be in debt.. That's not good, but my obsessing has taken away from my time with GOD.. Honestly, my time with GOD has seriously been lacking for awhile.. I'm going to take the effort to start to change that.. I read this morning and prayed for a good while.. It was really cleansing.. I realized, I've really been stagnant.. If I'm to be a Christian wife and mother, I really need to commit myself to devotions and really growing in the Lord before I can really be what God has called me to be as a wife and mother. Well, I should get back to chores.
Peace & Light
gina
