Okay so, I need to get in the habit of posting more. LOTS More.. Much has happened since I've posted last.. I found out we were pregnant on a Monday and we lost it on Thursday night/Friday morning.. It was early on I was only six weeks.. I had only been confirmed pregnant for like 4 days.. Yet, I was totally heartbroken. That's been a week ago.. Ryan's reaction really bugged me at first. He didn't see what the big deal was. So, we'd try again at least we know we could get pregnant. I guess I wanted him to be a little sad. Now looking back I know he was sad for me. He didn't want me to be hurting but at the same token he didn't think I should have been as upset as I was.. So, I dealt with feelings of anger. God love my father he was as upset as I was he couldn't call me until earlier this week.. My father and I are definitely Feelers.. My husband on the other hand he's definitely a Rational. SO, I'm dealing.. I'll admit my GOD time has been lacking.. generally all my relationships have been lacking except for that with Ryan.. He and I have bonded more than I ever thought we could.. I look at him and my heart melts. After 10 years I figure that's phenomial.. I can only imagine what it will be like at 50. I'm trying for a more stable position at work. Wish me luck.. As well, I'm trying the Dave Ramsey way of doing things. We'll see how it goes.. It would be awesome to be totally 100% debt free.. My best friend said I should be journaling so, that's what I'll do, or at least try to do.. As well, I'm not changing colleges as I would.. I'm staying at OCU though I'm not crazy about it. Well, I need to finish work around here.
Peace and Light
gina
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