BLOGGING=Homework??

SO, LOTS has happened to me since I last blogged.

I started a new class at OCU-EVILLE. And journaling is a requirement.. HA GOD IS GOOD! SO now I don't have an excuse for not blogging weekly if not nightly. I officially started my job today.. I had 2.5 days of training and the owner/manager of the company believes I can handle anything.. HAA if only I had as much faith in myself as everyone else seems too. I'm used to big corporations where you get like 2 weeks of training not a tenth of that especially with the responsibilities that this job entails. I think I'm doing rather well though. In one day I deposited enough money to cover the cost of my house.. I can't fathom that.. And the fact that everything balance made me really happy.. As well, I started back at OCU- I think if I can commit to it. I will enjoy it immensely.. I'm starting to realize that I have huge commitment issues. I knew I did with career choices, but I think I do in relationships as well. I can honestly say that there are 2 people in this world who know me as well if not better than I know myself.. One is my husband and the other is my kindred spirit. And she lives 5+ hours away.. WHICH SUCKS! It's at these times when she's going through something or we get to hang out face to face, or I'm going through stuff. That I'm Mad, I'm mad that I can't be where I still after 2.5 years call home and mad that I don't really want to allow myself to get that close to anyone again. Ryan and I are better than we have ever been, but outside of that my relationships here are superficial at best. I haven't been to my small group in weeks. Partly cause I was going through some stuff, and traveling and partly cause I don't want to leave the comfy cocoon of Ryan, the cats and watching "House" Which by the way is a Great Show.. Tuesdays Fox 8pm cst 9pm eastern.. SO tomorrow. I'm going to Group and I'm going to really really try and allow myself to get in true coinea with these people. I know I have let them down.. and for that I am sad.. It's always the getting started that I suck at in any situation.. Once I'm there/doing I'm fine.. It's the getting there.. yeah GOD ITs Totally YOU!.
I've also decided I want to put off trying for another positive result, untill I've had more positive results with diet and exercise. Ryan is supposedly okay with that.. I find it kind of humorous that this is something I've wanted for 2+ years and now he wants it and I'm wanting to wait.. Figures. So, Ryan has fixedme a wonderful dinner I need to go consume it by 9pm.. Men should ALWAYS Cook for their wives..

peace and light
gina