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So, it's been close to two months since my last post.. I never really have been good about journals..

I am official full term 37 weeks pregnant. I AM SO OVER IT!! In fact, I think I'm having post partum about still being pregnant if there is such a thing.. I know I have been more emotional as of late. People are continually asking me has the baby come yet, NO. Ryan and I have been bickering more. I've been a lot more sensitive or he's being more of a jhole. I can't tell which. I do know we're both going through a lot right now and I think subconciously realizing how are lives really going to change.. I could barely walk last night.. It took all of my will to move one leg if front of the other, because of pain the way Cole is sitting.. Tuesday was a full moon. I walked the mall 2 hours praying that GOD would allow this child to be born.. Nada. :o( I could barely walk this morning so, I called in. I officially start leave 5 o'clock tomorrow night. SO, I'm going to try all the old wives tales this weekend.. Except for the castor oil.. If you have any helpful hints please leave a comment.

In getting everything ready for the baby, I can say I feel almost like a single.. Ryan hasn't really been an active participant because he doesn't feel it's important. I'm the researcher. Though, he did do the things I was unable to do paint the room, put the crib together, and the play yard.. We were really blessed in being given two baby showers.. We were also given two expensive travel systems. One won't be in until April 4th. I want to be a good steward of these gifts.. Apparently, I've put to much thought and energy in how to be a good steward.. Ryan believes me to be a time wasting deliberator.. Which I will admit bothers me immensley. I will take time to make what I believe to be the right decision and still have buyers remorse.. I know this is annoying. I guess I have a huge fear of making the wrong choice, yet if you are aware of my background this makes perfect sense. Whereas he is definite in his decisions in regards to purchases.. I guess that would be because he doesn't weigh cost vs quality. Time is most important to him. OR that it isn't a big deal.. I am the complete and total opposite. I research consumer reports read hundreds of online reviews talk to people and then choose the most practical option.. It annoys even me. But, that is part of who I am, and you need to accept all aspects of a person.. I can't even remember the point of my rant... I guess I'm just feeling extremely overwhelmed.