CHAOS!.. I thought I was used to it. I thought I was okay with it, I was wrong.
On March 26 at 10 pm, Ryan and I entered Deaconess Women's Hospital thinking we were going to have a baby and leave 3 days later. God had other plans. We didn't leave until April 5th around 4pm. In the 11 days I saw new life and almost lost my own.. I realized I could love and be loved more than I ever thought possible. I thanked God for my husband and my son. Yes, Coleman Matthew Dean Ransford was born via emergency C-section at 3:31 pm on March 27th, 2006.
Three days later, they found multiple pulmonary embolists (blood clots in my lungs) and the next day a clot in my left leg. WOOT. Crazy times. I spent 6 days/5 nights in ICU and 3 days/2 nights on 5th floor med/surg. I don't want to be admitted into the hospital again for a long long time.
Ryan showed strength and courage and more love than I thought possible. I realized how much I was like my father in regards to giving up control and not pushing myself. For the first time in my life my memory was fuzzy. To many meds I guess. I'll be on blood thinners for at least the next 6 months. Maybe forever. I don't think that will be the case. I meet with the hematologist on Friday. He'll let me know then..
Peg stayed with us last week.. She really was a great help. Sleep.. We're getting more than most parents probably, Cole was sleeping in 3 hour segments. Now he wants to be awake more.. Plus the fact that I'm unable to really do anything besides care for him. Ryan has really been amazing.. I am so blessed. It's like we have bonded more than I ever thought possible.. GOD is awesome.
I'm now just waiting for the next 3 weeks to be up.. So, I can carry more than a gallon of milk, and hopefully Cole will sleep longer than 3 hours. And I can start walking him in the stroller and firming up. I miss the real world, I miss group and my comrades. Well, I've got bottles to wash/sanitize/make.
Peace & Light
gina
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