who needs sleep

When it comes to late night feedings, what works for one may definitely not work for others. I have come to adapt to 2.5-3hrs of sleep before each feeding.. On the weekends Ryan takes over well.. Ryan needs continous sleep.. We found this out.

Cole doesn't like to get cold.. He really doesn't like it.. HE TOTALLY GETS ANGRY! Ryan was changing him *Prior* to feeding, he had Cole lying on the cold plastic of the changing table.. COLE GOT ANGRY!! Ryan got Angry back.. I intervened and realized this is why GOD made the female the caretaker of children.. I always knew I was calm around children.. I proved it at 2:45 this morning.. I'm going back to bed now..

It's been a Month..

SO, I've been a mom for a month now.. TIME is so fleeting.. I live my life in 3 hour segments and yet It's already FRIDAY?? I have come to realize that I will never be a morning person.. I'm okay with the the getting up in the middle of the night feedings but the 6-7am feeding.. I pray Ryan will do the right thing and feed and change him.. This morning he did warm up the bottle and bring Cole to me.. I don't know that that's what I wanted but hey.. That's better than nothing right.. My small group has been amazing especially Rachel she set it up for my church to bring us meals. At first, I was like I don't really want the people to go out of there way.. Now I realize what a blessing it has been.. We have plenty of food..

Cole is now slightly smiling and I'm able to hold his attention more though his facial expressions sometimes give me a glimpse into the future. As a 13 year old boy rolls his eyes the moment his mom opens her mouth.. I'm not looking forward to this.. He adores music.. WHICH Makes me excited. He favors his Left hand.. Which makes me even more excited. He's going to be a football player and a creative genius.. WOOT.. Okay so I may be dreaming a bit there but one can hope right.. I just hope BJ is up for guitar lessons in a few years.. How young is too young for learing the guitar? He does prefer classical to Sufjan or Eastmountainsouth.. But hey, he's a month old..

My kindred spirit has let me know that she will be staying with us for the summer, I'm excited that she's going to be coming to terms with her family and spending time with her Godson.. Plus, it'll be good bonding time..

Ryan has been busy at work.. He's got a lot on his plate so, I'm trying to give him downtime and not resent him for it.. I now understand the life of a housewife who is unable to drive.. I'm excited to be able to DRIVE and Do more chores and bend over to pick up all the things that I drop... and lift more than a gallon of milk.. 2 weeks.. WOOT.. Oh well I should go wash bottles..

Peace and Light
Gina

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If at first you don't suceed...

So I mainly just wanted to post more pics.. You can view our entire photo album.

But in regards to the title. I am officially registered for Anatomy and Physiology online starting this summer .. With the okay of my husband I am going to try the nursing profession yet again.. After my hospital experience, I realized I could do this.. So, I'm excited and a little nervous. I really don't want to screw this up.. I've got a child now ya know. GOD's got my back and through him all things are possible. My body is adjusting to sleeping in 3 hour intervals.. I'm doing okay I think.. I'm healing slowly but healing none the less. My coumadin levels seem okay. All is looking up.

Life or something like it.

CHAOS!.. I thought I was used to it. I thought I was okay with it, I was wrong.

On March 26 at 10 pm, Ryan and I entered Deaconess Women's Hospital thinking we were going to have a baby and leave 3 days later. God had other plans. We didn't leave until April 5th around 4pm. In the 11 days I saw new life and almost lost my own.. I realized I could love and be loved more than I ever thought possible. I thanked God for my husband and my son. Yes, Coleman Matthew Dean Ransford was born via emergency C-section at 3:31 pm on March 27th, 2006.

Three days later, they found multiple pulmonary embolists (blood clots in my lungs) and the next day a clot in my left leg. WOOT. Crazy times. I spent 6 days/5 nights in ICU and 3 days/2 nights on 5th floor med/surg. I don't want to be admitted into the hospital again for a long long time.

Ryan showed strength and courage and more love than I thought possible. I realized how much I was like my father in regards to giving up control and not pushing myself. For the first time in my life my memory was fuzzy. To many meds I guess. I'll be on blood thinners for at least the next 6 months. Maybe forever. I don't think that will be the case. I meet with the hematologist on Friday. He'll let me know then..

Peg stayed with us last week.. She really was a great help. Sleep.. We're getting more than most parents probably, Cole was sleeping in 3 hour segments. Now he wants to be awake more.. Plus the fact that I'm unable to really do anything besides care for him. Ryan has really been amazing.. I am so blessed. It's like we have bonded more than I ever thought possible.. GOD is awesome.

I'm now just waiting for the next 3 weeks to be up.. So, I can carry more than a gallon of milk, and hopefully Cole will sleep longer than 3 hours. And I can start walking him in the stroller and firming up. I miss the real world, I miss group and my comrades. Well, I've got bottles to wash/sanitize/make.

Peace & Light
gina